Where Do I Go From Here?

Where have I been? The last few months have been pretty odd for me. I have been completely not myself. I'm not sure why. It is the first year that I have not been working with teens on a regular basis since I started working. I flopped two major programs simultaneously. I quit the program that i was creating. I havn't really randomly hung out with anyone in a long time. First year in a while I have no chavrusa and am not in any shiur. OK, so now what.... Must to get out and put things back together. Who am I? Who was I? Who do I want to be? How do I get there?